Argument Is Everywhere by Tori

April 29, 2019


Argument Is Everywhere

  1. Cleaning
  2. Walking/Playing *
  3. Independence (space) *
  4. Communication *
  5. School *
  6. Routine *
  7. The fosters
  8. Criminal minds
  9. Groups
  10. coffee
  11. sleep

I was asked how do I spend my time and I answered with walking. Walking may sound very boring and uninteresting to a lot of people but up until two months ago walking for me started to be impossible. For many years, at least three years, I was in constant pain. My right side of my body always got these horrible sharp pains that would occasionally get very bad that I would vomit. I was always in and out of emergency rooms but always left with either no answer or the famous “you just want drugs from us.” This hurt me because not only did I get sent home in pain but not a single doctor believed me. In October of last year a familiar pain lingered. I tried going about my day as normal as I could but my pale frowned face said otherwise. I ended up going to go to the emergency room once again full of doubt but in so much pain. I was over the age of 18 this time around which made me go to a different hospital. For once I walked out with the answer I had been searching for,hernias! The diagnosis came after having an ultrasound done and revisiting my old charts. I was not in a life threatening condition so the ER doctor suggested I see a surgeon specialist. The thought of surgery weighed on my chest. Can I make it through? How will the care of my child go as I recover? I was very worried but also very excited for the day to come. Four months later I was lying on a table in a cold room about to be cut open to hopefully reverse this pain. By this moment my hernias were so big and irritated that walking two blocks was all I could do before a limp came around. I could no longer carry my daughter who only weighed 20 pounds. I thought about my daughter and how I could potentially finally play and keep up with her. I inhaled and exhaled as I was given IV medication to fall asleep. Next thing I remember was waking up in so much pain. I instantly regretted my decision. Recovery was far from easy but I am now 2 months into recovery and I definitely am happy with the results. I can walk miles with having zero pain. I can run after my daughter at the playground without having a sharp stabbing pain in my side. It is amazing and never again will I take walking for granted.